12/20/10 ~ WOO!

Sooooo... yea, I havent posted anything in like FOREVERRRR!!!! I know, I'm a horrible person. lol Things have been INSANE thought. and yea, thats my only excuse. even though I havent even been on here sense the last day of school and now its almost Christmas... Well... over the summer I spent most of my time practicing for color guard and driving aroud (I GOT MY LICENCE IN JUNE!!!! :D) and now im getting distracted by facebook... lol anywayz, back to my excuses... I went to tennessee at the begining of july and then in august I went to Cedar Point (BEST VACATION EVAR!) and then I went to band camp the second week of august and then school started the third week... and then my dad was in the hospital for three months (he's home now) aaaand then i figured out how to use my video editing software and mastered all of photoshop :D but i did add quite a few videos to my youtbe channel... and IM SO FREAKIN EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!! I'm getting an AWESOME Perry the Palatypus shirt! : D anywayz i still suck at writing and im kinda tired so i should prob go to bed... Chirstmas shopping tomorrow!! :D

6/3/10 ~ Last Day of School =D

so, obviously, today was the last day of school :) technically. theres 20 mins tomorrow but me and the whole school except maybe 10 people if even are skipping :D lol color guard finally restarted :D im excited i love guard :) so, sorry i havent gone on here in like forever, ive been sooo busy and my laptop was broken :( but my mom fuxed it today so its all good :) lol so, yesterday i took my driving test and i passed!! :D i thought i was gonna fail tho cuz i really fucked up my downhill parking and when i went to leave after i uphill parked i forgot to signal as i was leaving. and i saw a cat ump out of my window when i was driving down a street and i like freaked out. lol wtf. haha but i still passed :D even if i failed almost all of my finals haha oh well. sux for me i guess, with the finals. in the bright side, i got a D+ in spanish!! which is awesome cuz i was almost positive that i was gonna get an F or a D- lol so tomorrow i get to see my friend sara who i havent seen in like 5 years =D im sooooo excited!! i really miss my friends from my old town lol i cant wait till i get my licsence cuz then i can drive don there and see them allll :) im also going to a book store to buy like 10 books that ive been wanting to buy for a really really long time :) anywayz i g2g sleep now :) so byyyyeeeee



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5/21/10

sooo um yea ive been far too busy and far too confused recently to get on here so yea im sorry lol i found out more about mandy and the answer brought up so many more questions but she doesnt want to talk about it so im just left behind all answerless and everything. oh well ill figure it out eventually. thats why ive been confused. the whole situation with mandy. and then ive been really busy with revenge of the space pandas :) ive been having play practice for that and not getting home until around 6 then eating dinner and then taking a shower, doing homework and going to bed because by the end of the day im exhausted. but the plays tomorrow along with my birthday :) im excited :D sweet 16!! :D anywayz i g2g take a shower hopefully ill be able to update again tomorrow? idk yet. byyyyeeeeee :)



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5/15/10

uggghhhh im really pissed off. my dad got really mad at the store today because i had to get wood for my demonstration speech and i needed 3 pieces that were $3 each and i was going to cut them each in 1/2 so i had enough pieces because thats the cheapest way and he started yelling at me in the middle of the store and wouldnt let me buy the paint. does he realize that if i fail this speech ill fail english 2???? anywayz it really pissed me off. and im pissed at my sister too because last night she never let me use the laptop and she slept on it and then set her alarm clock for 5:30am so that i wouldnt get it and dad wouldnt find out that we use it. and im still really confused about mandy. i was looking for an extra toothbrush today and i found mine and mandy's 7th grade gossip journal that we told each other all of our secrets in. i read it and it brought back quite a few memories but it made me sad because we arent that close anymore :( and so i started a gossip journal between us but instead of passing it back and fourth im gonna be the only person writing in it and i probably wont give it to her. if i do it wont be until long after it is completely filled. i also decided that im going to try something. i really want to make my family get along better, so im going to carry around a journal everywhere and each person in my family has 2 pages. 1 for all of the good things i notice and 1 for all of the bad things i notice. and then i think ill give both lists to them all for christmas. because when people are told that they do something they start to notice every time they do it, and sometimes they aim to stop doing it. so thats pretty much it. not a great day today :(



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5/14/10

today was great. i had a great time at dinner with some family friends and i really figured out more of who my real friends are. im still upset about mandy but i decided that i dont really care about her as much as i used to. im going to keep this blog really short because i have like 1 minuet before this computer has to be shut off so yea byyyyeeeeeeee



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5/13/10

i have felt like shit all day. on the verge of tears all day. and just right now i thoiught of something that might help but my txting turns off at 9:30 and it is now 10:00. :( yes, i am still upset about what my old neighbor told me. at lunch i talked to my guidance councelor and he said hed talk to mandy and then i went back to my table and had like a mental breakdown and i now know who my true best friend is and who my real best friends are and thank god one of them is a sophomore like me. i love them to death and they really helped me a lot today <3 they r jess and seth, and emily, of course, but i never see her anymore :( <3 anyways jess and seth really helped me a lot today and if they knew about this, id totally thank them a lot :) and thanks riley and mandy for helping me realise who my true friends are. i mean, riley definately is a great friend, he wouldnt have told me anything if he wasnt, nut mandy on the other hand... not so much anymore. anywayz, ive thought way more than most people do in a lifetime in the past hour so byyyeeee.



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5/12/10

sometimes i wish i was a character from a book. usually its the book im reading at the time. but today i wish i was Anna Fitzgerald from My Sister's Keeper. Because i feel like I can relater to her. and right now I just realized how horrible of a friend my "best" friend is. i now have no idea what to do. i really hope i can trust my old neighbor cuz thats who im talking to about it right now. i honestly dont feel like i can really trust her right now. and i know that she stopped telling me things. and the few things she does tell me, she tells all of her other friends first. and then she keeps calling me her "best friend" i honestly dont get it. im almost tempted to just stop talking to her but that would be mean wouldnt it? i think she stopped being my best friend in like november. its wierd. i dont think i have a best friend now. for the first time in my life. i mean, i have a ton of friends (more than most people) but i dont have a true best friend anymore. i feel so lost and im kinda pissed off. mandy always had me go to everything she was in. piano recital, ice show, play, anything. ive made all the sets for everything in the auditorium and school and she doesnt even have an intrest in seeing them. and the play im in thats on my birthday, she wont even consier going to it. :'( i feel so lost... i need help. my old neighbor is agreeing with her i think because hes always the first person she tells about things and i dont talk to him as often as he does. i dont know who to beleive. i feel so betreyed i dont know who to trust anymore. im so fiucking lost. if i think about more i think ill explode. i have to stop writing this... byyyeee



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5/11/10

ahhh!!!! today was sooo odd!!!! like i actually made the first bus for like the first time this semester and then right after i got on it started pouring and it wasnt even raining while i was waiting for it :) and then my guidance counselor let me and mandy steel his squishy thingy with eyes and so i had that all day and then he wouldnt take it back at lunch when i went to give it back today. then after school i help my friend torriana unjam her locker and then after that my friend maya and i were talking and we havent talk in like foreverrrr because we hardly ever see each other any more. :( and then after that i was going to my locker so i could put all my shit from history in my locker so that i wouldnt be late for play practice when i ran into my friends annie and jessie and so we were talking and play practice started at 3 and school gets out at 2:30 and it was 2:55 so i couldnt talk to them for very long but it was still fun :) and then i got to play practice on time and found out that my fellow citizen went home sick today :( but all was good even though i was the only citizen there. but today was an important practice to go to because we had to talk about props - im bringing the giant pumpkin :) and costumes which i already have mine but we need to bring them to school by monday, cast pictures, cast t-shirts, and the cast party. which i am definitely going to :D my parents havent let me go to any of the other ones but since it is on my birthday they kind of have to let me go because they canceled my birthday camping trip that i go on every year :'( and they wont let me have a party even though its my sweet 16 :( so i get to go to the cast party :D im exited :) so im going to go do my biology homework now so byyeeee



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5/10/10

its happening. the days ive been dreading but have known in the back of my head would probubly come back to haunt me. the days that brought me such horrors. the days of the wreched black hole that keeps getting deeper but is exteremely difficult to get out of. the black hole that swallows so many wonderfull people. the black hole that tried to swallow me a few times but failed. the hole that has swallowed 6 of my friends in the past year alone. the darkest days are in that hole. the black hole of depression. and its trying to dig itself into my life again. i can feel it. its edges are tempting. for, its just too easy to fall off the edges and into its darkness. espessially for a klutz like me. though i have no wishes to be welcomed back into it. its almost inevitable that it will happen. all you have to do is lose concentration for a fraction of a second and it grabs you by the foot and pulls you in. literally. i can feel it pulling me downward. its kind of scary, yet familiar. like ive been here before. because i have. it started in february 2009. i finally dug myself out of the never ending hole in july 2009, when my grandpa died and i broke my kneecap. odd isnt it? that the death of a family member lifted me almost completely out of that deep, dark hole? and that the breaking of my kneecap- which still hurts right now, pulled me out the rest of the way? i think it was because my grandpa died for me. he died so that i didnt have to. and it was him because the doctors had been telling him every year for the last 20 years of his life that he had less than a year left in this life. I believe he's still with us today. maybe as baby Rose. who was baptized on Saturday. maybe as one of the kittens that one of the stray cats that lives at my grandma's hosue. i dont know. but i believe he's still with us somewhere. or maybe he's in the heaven's. watching us from above. and perhapse he'll greet my dad at the gates of Heaven when he dies. or maybe he'll come back as the person that creates peace in my family. if such a person could ever show up. it seems like that would be too good to happen in my shit home life. well, im gonna go to bed now so byyyeeee.



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5/9/10- Happy Mother's Day!!

umm so today i didnt really do much lol pretty much i woke up watched avatar went to ruths chris (a really good/realyl expensive steak house) came home got on the computer lol thats it haha byyyeeee


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5/8/10

omgomgomgomg today was a pretty great day :) because this morning was my cuzins baptism and then after that it was her brothers birthday party and then after that it was a mothers day dinner and so i got to spend all say with the reletives that i dont get to see very often :) an also when i got home i got almost all of my apps to work finally :) and yea it made me very happy :) and one of my cuzins, john, works for an insurance company (it was his daughter that got baptised) and his job is to think of ways that people can die that his insurance company can cover kind of and i want to be a storm chaser so his wife thinks that my spring/ summer home should be a trailer in oklahoma and johns brither who is younger than i am thinks that my "the rest of the time" home should be an all glass house in california lmao can you tell that i am very well loved in my family? haha we are all so wierd... but its wayyy more fun that way :D anywayz, today was a good day :) i am tired. and so i am going to go to bed now. byyyeeeeee



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5/7/10

ughhh my ipod really fucking pissed me off cuz its gay and retarded and it doesnt work right. not that theres anything wrong with being gay or retarded because gay people are awesome and im retarded but i cant think of any ipod insults right now. but anywayz theres this one girl, meg, and shes my friends current girlfriend and shes really annoying and we have wayyy too much in common. about the same hearing loss about the same vision loss a lot of similar clothing the same friends (only i have more cuz like i said, shes annoying) anywayz i just found out that she has my birthday too. and yes, she has MY birthday cuz im turning 16 and shes turning 15. but since shes an attention whore shes probably gonna go around being all like 'its my birthday treat me like royalty just ignore everyone else' and my birthdays more important than hers cuz its my sweet 16. and that kind of made me mad cuz like pretty much everything about us that we cant possibly change is the same. and i strive for being different and she strives for being the same. thats the biggest difference. ughhhh how can i be different if shes the same? arrrgggggg i am cold lol so my ex boyfriend texted me today and told me to add him on facebook because he finally got one and i dont really know if i want to. i mean, we were messaging each other on facebook a little because he got like a week after we broke up and i didnt want to add him and its been like 2 weeks now and im not really sure if i want to add him or not. i mean, its not like i have anything against him or anything because i dont, its just that hes my ex you know? and its not like weve been broken up for like forever i mean its only been like 2 weeks. and he told me that a few people are waiting for it to be a little bit longer since we broke up so that they can ask me out which i am going to say no to all of them just because being single is fun and he seemed kind of unhappy about that and he told me i was being annoying (as always just because i have to explain my reasoning that doesnt normally make any sense) and so i asked him why he texted me and he was like "because i like you and your fun and amusing to talk to" what the fuck im so confused whats happening???? anyway i know im not supposed to go to bed confused but my head hurts so im going to anyway. byyyyeeeeee



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5/6/10

omg im so pissed off at the moment >:[ because my ipod broke so i had to get a new 1. well thats cool and all right? yea but i had to redownload everything. which isnt a big deal. but with all the apps i play all the time i have to start over with because they dont make accounts for them. what the fuck. why the hell wouldnt they do that. i spent quite a bit of money on some of them and i was really far into them and now i have to start all over again >:[ and also i have to reset all of my settings. and this greatly displeases me. but on the bright side i got my costume for revenge of the space pandas!! :D im wearing lime green gogo boots a flowy skirt thats fading striped green and yellow and brownish a blue shirt with black zebra strips and a white 1/2 sweatshirt thingy and i think maybe yellow leggings but idk yet and possibly a green headband with two antennas spring thingys with red green and silver streamers coming out of the top. so i think that since im like really tired and about to crash in like 30 seconds because ive been staying up just to update this that im going to go to bed in a few minuets. and i would tell you all about my day but i dont remember most of it because it seems like it was forever ago. sooo yea lol im going to bed now. byyyyeeeee



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5/5/10

i dont feel very good right now so this will probably be kind of short again. sorry. its been an off day, ive felt kinda not very goodish all day :( but yea so this morning i had to run around the school like a maniac trying to find a computer that would let me print my rough draft for my research paper which is worth 75 points. and then i found one and i had to go to a color guard meeting but by the time i got there it was ending :( and then i went to english and we were watching youtube videos to find ethos pathos and the other one that i cant remember what its called right now but some of them were really funny because they were just that ridiculous lol and then i went to spanish where we celebrated cinco de mayo by taking a test. isnt that just the best way to celebrate a "fake" holiday? no, no its not the best way to celebrate anything. then i went to lunch which was kinda boringish today but that mightve been because ive been so blehhh all day. not even blahhhhh just blehhhhh :( and then i went to photography and finished my photoshop and then i went to history and we had a substitute teacher :( i actually really like my history teacher lol but that is the only class that i had today that i have a few friends in and so we were talking the whole time and i fell while sitting down and, yes, it is possible. i do it sometimes. and yes, it IS different than falling out of a chair. and then i went to play practice and we played a game and i had to play leap frog with a rhinoceros and play hopscotch with an elephant. and then i went to my guidance counselor and stole some candy and then i went home and then i went to my neighbors cinco de mayo party and then i went home and now im writing this and i still feel like shit so yea byyyeeeeeeee



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5/4/10

this is going to be a short entry because i am tired and its ben a long day and i just dinnished writing the rough draft for my research paper :D anywayz today went like this: my bus driver drove passed my house and then screamed SHIT!! and stopped far away from my house so that i could get on it. then when i got to school i was followed around by this wierd awkward kid that likes me but he doesnt really know how to talk to people and every other sentance is "did i do or say something wrong?" and he asked me out and i said no cuz i never talk to him. and i dont really wanna start talking to him all the time either... and then i went to the guidance counclor's office (as always) and got candy and had an awesome conversation with some friends and then i went to all my classes and then i went to play practice and that was fun (of course) and then i went to take my driving test but the teacher that i was driving with cancelled and didn tell me until i got there so i missed and hour of play pracitce for apparently no reason :( and that was suppised to be how i got home so the other drivers ed teacher who was driving with different students drove me home and then i was home for like 20 mins and my mom got home and then we left cuz my sister wanted new jeans so i went to borders and bought some storm chaser books :D and w got home at 9pm and then i worked on mu research paper until 11:30pm and now im writing this so i am now going to make my bed an goto sleep so byyyyeeeeeee





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5/3/10

i am about 300% sure that my dad thinks that i am a hell of a lot dumber than i am because he changed the password to his laptop from our dogs name to his job so that i couldnt use it anymore but that obviously didnt work because i am using his laptop right now and he didnt tell me what the password is lol i call that a fail on his part :P but it works out great for me because now i dont have to worry about my sister using the computer :) however, i am currently a little upset because in the past year 10 people i know have died (6 suicides, 3 car accidents, and my grandpa was old and had been sick 20 years but the thing that ultimately killed him was another heart attack) and my friend meg txted me today saying that she was writing and i asked what she was writing and she said a suicide note and im pretty sure she was writing a legit suicide note. :( so now im not sure what to do because i cant get ahold of her boyfriend and my friend that i always go to for advise said that he didnt want to tell me what to do about this because he doesnt know her and because he didnt want to tell me to do something that made it worse. i just dont want her to be number 11 :( but on a brighter note, i now know what i am going to use for my costume in Revenge of the Space Pandas!! :) for those of you that dont know, that is the play im in thats on my birthday :) im excited :) anywayz, im gonna wear go go boots and socks with neon green and black strips on them with hot pink ends and hello kitty on them and a tiger ears headband and a green headband with like antenna spring things that have red green and silver streamers on the end and a bunch of other shit that doesnt match cuz i am a citizen on a different planet, called Crestveiw :) and again, back to the not so happy stuff... i know, sad bloggy thingy today... sorry.... its been a long day...but um so apparently my friend rachelle's ex bf, my friend nic, and my friend tate all went to a party over the weekend and apparently rachelle's ex and tate made out but nic who is rachelle's bff swears that nothing happened and then at lunch they were both all pissed off and crying and what not ughhh soooo confusing with them... and then like tomorrow i have this huge biology test i dont know any of the shit thats on there and after school i am taking my driving test and i am really nervous because ive never drove with that teacher before and i never learned how to parallel park... so im probably screwed but tomorrow is the only day i can take it :/ anywayz wish me luck :) cuz im gonna need itttt but its getting kinda lateish and i still havent done my homework yet so byyyyeeeeeee

5/2/10

omg so today was such a long day. it was a good day, but my knee hurted really bad and that just automatically makes it a long day. dont ask why cuz it just does. but it was a fun day cuz some friends from my old town came up and we went shopping all day even though none of us got what we went shopping to buy lol i went to get a new purse and they went to get jewlery for prom and all we ended up getting was my friends ears double pierced because we couldnt find any earings that look good by themselves and matched her dress. but thats ok because she knows someone with jewlery that matches her dress and she can borrow it and i can get the purse i want from target and there is one of those 1.2 miles frim my house. i know this because one time me and my mom were there and the key to our car dissappeared and we had to walk home and then my neighbor drove us back to target to get our car and we measured the distance to see hor far we walked and it was 1.2 miles. anywayz we also spent like 2 hours at bath and body works because we smelled every single sent they had in the entire store :) but after awhile they all smelled pretty much the same but we bought a bunch of stuff there and i bought a new wallet cuz my old one broke awhile ago. i also got my negatives developed from the zoo and the second role didnt turn out at all, they were all blank :'( but every single picture on the first role turned out perfectly so i should be ok :) and at dinner me and pheeny were talking about this kid who got arrested for fucking a frog and then somehow rape came up and her sister goes "omg! i get it! raper as is rape her!" and she was completely serious lmfao and then she tried to climb the wall... definately NOT the smartest thing ive ever seen someone try to do... anywayz it was a lot of fun :) now i am uploading a bunch of pics onto facebook. too bad i can only do it 5 at a time and i have like a million of them to put on here... its gonna take for everrrr :( but thats ok cuz as soon as im done writing this im gonna do my spanish homework while i wait for the pictures to load. im am soooo cold. i should put my sheets that my mom finally washed on the bed so that i can get in it and probubly be warmer. but im also feeling really lazy cuz my knee hurts and i dont wanna get up and move all the stuff off my bed so maybe ill just sleep on top of the blankets instead of under them even though if i do that ill probubly freeze to death. anywayz its getting late so im gonna go to bed now. byyyyeeeeeeee



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5/1/10

umm... so ill prob keep this entry pretty short for 3 reasons. 1: im only typing with two fingers on my right hand. dont ask why cuz i dont actually know. 2: i dont realy feel all that great right now. and 3: im kindaish tiredish and im going shopping all day tonorrow and so i have to get up early tomorrow so need to go to bed. anywayz, on to my day today... im gonna start with yesterday. cuz it kindaish ties in with today. so yesterday my mom decided she was gonna do all the laundry so she took all the sheets off mine and my sisters beds and then she actually didnt end up doing the laundry. and she wont let us make our beds. so me and my sister are sleeping on the couch bed in the living room. we have to do that again tonight cuz she didnt to the laundry today either. :( and we are also dog sitting my neighbors dog and so he is sleeping on the couch bed with us :) and he got to my house at the same time that i was leaving to go see furry vengence with a few friends and it was actually really funny :) and then when that was over we went to mcdonalds and had a food fight and then i went to maddy's ice show and they did charlie and the chocolate factory :) througout the entire thing maddys little sister was dancing behind us it was soooo funny :) and now im home and im going to bed. byyyeeee



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4/30/10

finding nemo is like my favorite movie. i just thought id put that out there. me and my friends were like quoting it all day :D and im watching it right now :) but its almost over :( anywayz today was the first normal day at school of the week and its a friday lol how bizzar is that? i think its kinda weird but i live for the wierd things in life :) like all of the inanimate objects that i use all time are conspiring against me :S like today after resistance training (which is my gym class but we only lift weights and stuff) i was in the locker room changing into my clothes and my gym locker slammed shut on the skin between my thumb and my finger and it like tried to take my thumb off my hand and it was my right hand and i am right handed and it did not go well... it hurt like all day and i had to ice it all day and i couldnt move my thumb so i could barely write and it was not fun lol and in biology my bitch of a teacher made us reenact the process of making protein chains so i was a tRNA and the way my molecule prop thingy was made was like a yellow hanger with a styrophome ball on the top with red pipe cleaners sticking out of it and it looked like a chicken which is kinda funny because the agricultural science classes were hatching chickens and a lot of them got to get pulled out of the incubator and put into the cage today and my child growth and development class is in the agg science room so we got to play with them and me and my friend kailey sang a song that i made up a few weeks ago to the chicks :) the song goes: cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck chicken chicken cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck cluck chicken chicken :) and the clucks are all sang with like a normal pitched voice and the chickens are all sang like really really low lol i know, im an amazing song writer dont try and deny it :P and like we were under a tornado watch until like 45 mins ago and i think that was awesome cuz i LOVE severe weather :D i wanna be a storm chaser :) but it only stormed for like 20 mins and it wasnt even that bad of a thunder storm :( but it still stormed and that makes me happy enough :) anywayz i should prob go now cuz my sister keeps bugging me and she cant find out about this lol byyyeeeeeeee



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4/29/10

yup, thats right! its the last day of april!! you know what that means? 23 days till my birthday!!!! :D ill be 16 which means i can driveeeee :D actually, thats technically not true cuz i cant get my license until the end of june because i didnt get my permit until mid-september :( but thats ok :) im sooo excited for tomorrow because its a friday and because all my friends will be at school :D cuz the majority of my friends are juniors and they were all taking the ACTs today and yesterday so of course the seniors didnt have to come to school at all. so today was an a day for the freshman and sophomores and since all of my classes on b days are mostly sophomores the day was almostish normal. all the hallways were empty and 1 of them we werent allowed to walk in because thats where the testing was. my spanish classroom is in one of those hallways so we had spanish in a different room. theres this hallway at the landing of one of the barely used hallways and it looks like through the hallway there is just a bunch of offices and stuff but there is one really small classroom at the end of the hallway and its just kind of awkwardly placed there but it is like the best classroom ever! the view out the window is amazing cuz its like 1/2 undergroundish so like 1/4 of the window all u see is bushes and then above that you see an old radio tower thats not used anymore and it reminds me of my grandma's house because of how like countryish it is i actually felt comfortable in that room and that is rare for me to feel that comfortable at school even though i spend more time there than almost everyone that works there. and since it was a b day and my b day lunch table is normally 3 sophomores including me and 6 juniors, me, jessie, and jenna decided to sit with some other sophomores that we know but rnt really like friends with kinda.., one of them's locker is next to mine and we ride the same bus, one is my friends cousin, and the other one was on the same volleyball team as me in 7th grade. the one who rides my bus was trying to convince us that oatmeal and peanut butter eats stomached fat which is definitely not true because i eat a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for breakfast (yes, breakfast) every day and sometimes i have one for lunch too and occasionally dinner. but i dont like oatmeal so i dont know for sure about that one but im guessing that it doesnt eat stomach fat either. anywayz, it was a weird lunch. and then in my photography class, me and jenna were sharing paper because we both ran out and the teacher gave us some and we decided to share it because almost everyone in my class of 11 people was out. jenna finished off the paper in class today, so i have to go buy some and the people that work at the only store anyone knows of that has it hate my photo teacher and my school for some lame-ass reason. and then in history i always have fun because theres this one kid thats a comedian and hes hilarious and then theres this other kid who has like no common sense and hes really funny too. but the bad thing about history is that liam is in that class and he sits behind caiden who sits right behind me. and liam is still glaring at me all through the entire class :( but me and caiden are friends so we were talking and both caiden and liam wrestle and neither of them are all that good but liam is unfortunately better than caiden and caiden had his keys with him- i dont know why... he's still in drivers ed... but he was swinging them around and i was like u should whack liam with them and caiden like freaked out cuz he knows that liam could beat him up lol anywayz it was and interesting day. when i got home my mom was all excited becuase she wanted me and my sister to watch H.R. Puffenstuff with her so we did and thats like one of her favorite movies and she used to play it sometimes before we moved up here. we used to live about two hours south of here if u didnt know that. but both my mom and i fell asleep. and then my dad through a fit kindaish because i told him to grill the chicken that we were having for dinner instead of me doing it. which i cant grill anything because i have absolutely no idea how to use a grill. and then after dinner my mom and i got into the hot tub :) and it was nice and warm and then when she was all pruney we went inside and got dressed and she went to bed and i did my homework and am updating this. i know, an exciting day lol i need to go to bed now otherwise i have to watch like 20 hours of bad movies. so byyeeeee

4/28/10

today when i woke up i couldnt find my water bottle. yea. i know what ur thinking. that my missing water bottle is not big deal? well, apparently it is cuz i had to use a different one which created all sorts of problems throughout the day. :( anyways when i got to school i hung out with my friends like i do every morning and then when the bell rang i went to the room to take the retired act. it was one of the science rooms but the teacher that teaches in that room is completely obsessed with moles! i mean, there were moles everywhere! big moles small moles fat moles skinny moles mickey moles minnie moles twin moles doctor moles puppet moles farmer moles a mole wearong a kilt... pretty much every mole u can imagine was in there. but ive heard that if u make her a mole u get extra credit so i guess thats good :) anywayz like everyone brought books and stuff to read in case they finnished early, and it turns out we werent allowed to have that stuff! no books, no food, no water, no noise, no looking around... i mean jeeze the list just goes on and on about stuff we couldnt do! but it went by really fast cuz they only give u barely enough time to do each one if u skip a few and guess instead of reading the question. after the act i we went to the gym and had an indoor recess :D i untied my friend isan's shoes like a gaggillon times and the he found a pencil on the floor and threw it at me several times repeatedly :/ then it hit my toe really hard and the led broke on the pencil... so i tied each of shoes like 10 knotted and then 10 knotted the laces from each shoe together in 3 places :D but the water bottle that i had today had a mouth hole that was like waayyyyyy too big for my mouth and because of that i spilled it all over me a bunch of times... and i was wearing a silk shirt so it was really noticeable. :( then in my child growth and developmemt class we watched juno :D that is a funny show :) then when my mom got home we were gonna take 2 chairs and nothing else outside but then dad decided that my mom and i had to take the whole fucking furnicher set outside. :( and then i spent 2 hours trying to write my research paper only to find that the printer wasnt working. so not asking if u had internet cuz mine wasnt. :( anywayz im falling asleep so byyyeeeee


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4/27/10

what the fuck is happening to the world???? my dad, who completely hates facebook and everything about it, apparently has one... i looked him up and it didnt look like hes really ever used it, but still! and the only reason i even found out about it is because when i went to log on to mine today, his email was in the login bar thingy! what the hell was he doing?? i think he probably anonymously tries to stalk mine, my sisters, and my moms profiles, which probably doesnt work because they r all set on private... but it still doesnt make sense to me. i went to target today because i had to buy my aunt a birthday card and my sister had to get he friend a birthday present and we saw my friend cal and his mom wanda :) we talked for like 10 minuets even though we were both in a hurryyy it was like the best part of my day, oddly enough :/ well, besides the fact that leon wasnt at school today!! i have no idea if that means i got him suspended or if he was just sick, which i would know if i had been at school instead of a field trip yesterday but i dont really care enough to ask, i think ill just ask shane tomorrow if i see him, which i might not because hes a junior and theyre taking the ACT tomorrow. which, so am i cuz the sophomores are taking a retired ACT. ewwww. but that means that i only have my A4 class tomorrow which is awesome cuz the best a day class that i have and that means 1 a day and 2 b days this week which is extremely odd cuz its an a week but thats awesome in my opinion because i like b days better than a days :) omg!! just now something happened that completely made my whole day :) my friend emily, aka. r-squirrel, and i are talking on facebook which is unbelievably amazing cuz we havent talked in forever for whatever reason... but im sooo happy to talk to her :D anywayz, i need to go to bed because i have to take that dumb retired ACT tomorrow... :( anywayz im still trying to figure out what to write at the very end of all my posts so u gots to comment and tell me!! ok? good. your all gonna do that. byyyeeeeee :)



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4/26/10

today was like the best day so far this year :D i know... thats kind of sad thats its takes almost 5 months to get a good day... not that all the other days were horrible, cuz they werent, they just werent all that good compared to today. anywayz, the day went like this: i woke up, put in my contacts, got dressed, out on makeup, straightened my hair, ate breaktfast (a peanut butter and jelly sandwich), brushed my teeth, put on shoes, ran outside and barely cought the bus, listened to my ipod, got to school, got off the bus, went inside the school, talked to 6 of my friends while waiting for my other friend, went to my locker, went to my guidance coucelors office to get chocolate, went to the photography room where i got a juice box, talked to a few friends, went to the cafeteria, got on a buz, went to the zoo, took pictures for photography at the zoo, got lost like 6 times, at lunch, found some different friends to hang out with, chased a peacock, had a zebra try to pee on my friend, chased a funny looking bird with a feather thingy on its head, went to the gift shop, bought an adorable stuffed penguin, realized what time it was, sprinted to the other side of the zoo with my friends that i was with, go tback on the bus, went to back to school, got on a different bus, talked to different friends, got off that bus, got on a different bus, listened to my ipod, got home, got off the bus, watched tv, went to a really good pizza place for dinner, went to my neigbors house and ate dissert, went home, took a shower, did homework, and started blogging. i know, such an exiting day... :D omg it was really funny. me, maddy, and demi were trying to figure out where we were, and there was this goose and we followed it around for a couple of minuets and then we found this one animal, i think it was called an opak? im not sure... anywayz we were looking at ut and then we decided that we werent going to take a picture of it and demi started to walk away and me and maddy both turn around at about the same time and the goose was like stading on the backs of our shoes! we both like saw it and jumped back with a screem lmfao. and then this one bird, it was huge, was flying and it came down and one foot grabbed my hair and the other foot grabbed demi's hair and we all screemed cuz it freaked maddy out. that was a little scary, i mean, what if the damn bird took us both away? it prob wouldve dropped us in the bear exhibit, which isnt even opened yet, so we wouldve been like stuck forever and ever. but it was a lot of fun, id deffinately very happily repeat today :) and it was sooo aswesome, no one in my family fought today for the first time in who knows how long :D anywayz im tired so im gonna go to bed now. goodnight and good byyyeeeeee


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4/25/10

Today i went to my cousins house for my uncles birthday party :) it would have been more fun, had my other cousins been ivited to, but it was just my family and my uncles family cuz my uncles mom threw the party and she made a pie for my dad cuz he has cancer. anywayz, like i said yesterday, i drove. that wouldntve been such a big deal, but my dad insisted on sitting in the front seat. my mom at least understands that im not familiar with the roads down there (my extended family lives about 2 hours south from me) and that im still learning to drive... while my dad likes to just assume that i know what im doing and how to get all the way down there without any directions besides the one time he told me every street id have to drive on. like im gonna remember that? ha! my memory is just about as good as Dory's on finding nemo lol but sinse i had no idea where i was and where i was going, my dad freaked out and yelled at for like 45 minets because i missed a turn! and i wasnt even on the interstate or anything so i could easily turn around... and when i asked him a question he just asked it right back at me... does he want me to get in a crash and possibly kill us all? i mean... i know hes dying and everything and that i am actually looking forward to death, yes i know im wierd like that, but sheesh he couldve been a lot nicer about it, especially sinse it was raining... so, my cousin Megs and i decided that over the summer we would go to all the concerts that are mainly for younger kids, like justin beiber and nick jonas, wearing clothes with question marks on them cuz we dont understand why people like them. if you know leave a comment telling me because i honestly dont get it. i think i should probubly go to bed now cuz i have to get up at 6 to go to school but im going on a feild trip for my photography class to the zoo so we can take pictures :D that makes me happy because tomorrow is an a day and i have all my sucky classes on a days. b days are better. and then i think i have tech club after but im not sure... maybe ill stay after school just in case and then if i dont ill go over to the grade school and tutor :) i should come up with something i always say at the end of my blog... comment telling me what i should say to plz thx :) byyeeeeee


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4/24/10

so, today i went shopping for a dress and swimsuits. it took foreverrr to find a swimsuit that fits me cuz i have big boobs and im pretty skinny :/ anyways eventually i found some and my sister was being a bitch and she tried to kill it :( and then when we were looking at dresses i ended up buying a cute shirt and pants instead because that outfit was wayyy cuter than all the dresses combined :) and its not like the outfit had to be a dress or anything... :) theres this mall cop at the mall i went to and his brother, leon, is in my grade. he stalked me on the phone for awhile and then in geometry one day he rubbed his dick on my hand :/ it was very disgusting. and because he was stalking me and i hated him so much i told my guidance counselor who made me tell the dean who told leon that he was suspended. that made me and everyone else in the entire school happy because hes creepy to everyone and no1 likes him. leons mom called the school and got him out of every punishment! he threatened to make up a bunch of shit about me a few weeks later and so the dean threatened to press charges against him and his mom got him out of that too :( i dont think that was very fair, because he clearly deserves to be punished in some way... almost all of my friends have been stalked by him too so its not like i was the first person he ever stalked... i was just the first person to do anything about it... whatever, it doesnt really matter, anyway leon hates me now :) he like stares at me the whole class period for the 2 classes we have together (geometry, history, a lunch, and, depending on the day, morning study period) its really awkward. anyways ima do a lot of driving in the morning so i need to go to bed. byeee :)


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