12/20/10 ~ WOO!

Sooooo... yea, I havent posted anything in like FOREVERRRR!!!! I know, I'm a horrible person. lol Things have been INSANE thought. and yea, thats my only excuse. even though I havent even been on here sense the last day of school and now its almost Christmas... Well... over the summer I spent most of my time practicing for color guard and driving aroud (I GOT MY LICENCE IN JUNE!!!! :D) and now im getting distracted by facebook... lol anywayz, back to my excuses... I went to tennessee at the begining of july and then in august I went to Cedar Point (BEST VACATION EVAR!) and then I went to band camp the second week of august and then school started the third week... and then my dad was in the hospital for three months (he's home now) aaaand then i figured out how to use my video editing software and mastered all of photoshop :D but i did add quite a few videos to my youtbe channel... and IM SO FREAKIN EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!! I'm getting an AWESOME Perry the Palatypus shirt! : D anywayz i still suck at writing and im kinda tired so i should prob go to bed... Chirstmas shopping tomorrow!! :D

6/3/10 ~ Last Day of School =D

so, obviously, today was the last day of school :) technically. theres 20 mins tomorrow but me and the whole school except maybe 10 people if even are skipping :D lol color guard finally restarted :D im excited i love guard :) so, sorry i havent gone on here in like forever, ive been sooo busy and my laptop was broken :( but my mom fuxed it today so its all good :) lol so, yesterday i took my driving test and i passed!! :D i thought i was gonna fail tho cuz i really fucked up my downhill parking and when i went to leave after i uphill parked i forgot to signal as i was leaving. and i saw a cat ump out of my window when i was driving down a street and i like freaked out. lol wtf. haha but i still passed :D even if i failed almost all of my finals haha oh well. sux for me i guess, with the finals. in the bright side, i got a D+ in spanish!! which is awesome cuz i was almost positive that i was gonna get an F or a D- lol so tomorrow i get to see my friend sara who i havent seen in like 5 years =D im sooooo excited!! i really miss my friends from my old town lol i cant wait till i get my licsence cuz then i can drive don there and see them allll :) im also going to a book store to buy like 10 books that ive been wanting to buy for a really really long time :) anywayz i g2g sleep now :) so byyyyeeeee



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5/21/10

sooo um yea ive been far too busy and far too confused recently to get on here so yea im sorry lol i found out more about mandy and the answer brought up so many more questions but she doesnt want to talk about it so im just left behind all answerless and everything. oh well ill figure it out eventually. thats why ive been confused. the whole situation with mandy. and then ive been really busy with revenge of the space pandas :) ive been having play practice for that and not getting home until around 6 then eating dinner and then taking a shower, doing homework and going to bed because by the end of the day im exhausted. but the plays tomorrow along with my birthday :) im excited :D sweet 16!! :D anywayz i g2g take a shower hopefully ill be able to update again tomorrow? idk yet. byyyyeeeeee :)



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5/15/10

uggghhhh im really pissed off. my dad got really mad at the store today because i had to get wood for my demonstration speech and i needed 3 pieces that were $3 each and i was going to cut them each in 1/2 so i had enough pieces because thats the cheapest way and he started yelling at me in the middle of the store and wouldnt let me buy the paint. does he realize that if i fail this speech ill fail english 2???? anywayz it really pissed me off. and im pissed at my sister too because last night she never let me use the laptop and she slept on it and then set her alarm clock for 5:30am so that i wouldnt get it and dad wouldnt find out that we use it. and im still really confused about mandy. i was looking for an extra toothbrush today and i found mine and mandy's 7th grade gossip journal that we told each other all of our secrets in. i read it and it brought back quite a few memories but it made me sad because we arent that close anymore :( and so i started a gossip journal between us but instead of passing it back and fourth im gonna be the only person writing in it and i probably wont give it to her. if i do it wont be until long after it is completely filled. i also decided that im going to try something. i really want to make my family get along better, so im going to carry around a journal everywhere and each person in my family has 2 pages. 1 for all of the good things i notice and 1 for all of the bad things i notice. and then i think ill give both lists to them all for christmas. because when people are told that they do something they start to notice every time they do it, and sometimes they aim to stop doing it. so thats pretty much it. not a great day today :(



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5/14/10

today was great. i had a great time at dinner with some family friends and i really figured out more of who my real friends are. im still upset about mandy but i decided that i dont really care about her as much as i used to. im going to keep this blog really short because i have like 1 minuet before this computer has to be shut off so yea byyyyeeeeeeee



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5/13/10

i have felt like shit all day. on the verge of tears all day. and just right now i thoiught of something that might help but my txting turns off at 9:30 and it is now 10:00. :( yes, i am still upset about what my old neighbor told me. at lunch i talked to my guidance councelor and he said hed talk to mandy and then i went back to my table and had like a mental breakdown and i now know who my true best friend is and who my real best friends are and thank god one of them is a sophomore like me. i love them to death and they really helped me a lot today <3 they r jess and seth, and emily, of course, but i never see her anymore :( <3 anyways jess and seth really helped me a lot today and if they knew about this, id totally thank them a lot :) and thanks riley and mandy for helping me realise who my true friends are. i mean, riley definately is a great friend, he wouldnt have told me anything if he wasnt, nut mandy on the other hand... not so much anymore. anywayz, ive thought way more than most people do in a lifetime in the past hour so byyyeeee.



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5/12/10

sometimes i wish i was a character from a book. usually its the book im reading at the time. but today i wish i was Anna Fitzgerald from My Sister's Keeper. Because i feel like I can relater to her. and right now I just realized how horrible of a friend my "best" friend is. i now have no idea what to do. i really hope i can trust my old neighbor cuz thats who im talking to about it right now. i honestly dont feel like i can really trust her right now. and i know that she stopped telling me things. and the few things she does tell me, she tells all of her other friends first. and then she keeps calling me her "best friend" i honestly dont get it. im almost tempted to just stop talking to her but that would be mean wouldnt it? i think she stopped being my best friend in like november. its wierd. i dont think i have a best friend now. for the first time in my life. i mean, i have a ton of friends (more than most people) but i dont have a true best friend anymore. i feel so lost and im kinda pissed off. mandy always had me go to everything she was in. piano recital, ice show, play, anything. ive made all the sets for everything in the auditorium and school and she doesnt even have an intrest in seeing them. and the play im in thats on my birthday, she wont even consier going to it. :'( i feel so lost... i need help. my old neighbor is agreeing with her i think because hes always the first person she tells about things and i dont talk to him as often as he does. i dont know who to beleive. i feel so betreyed i dont know who to trust anymore. im so fiucking lost. if i think about more i think ill explode. i have to stop writing this... byyyeee



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